Nine years ago today, my mother passed away from breast cancer. I remember my dad whispering the news into my ear that morning. I laid in bed for a minute, then went running. My mom started her day with a 6 mile jog and my routine has become a tribute to her. Like Humphrey Bogart said to Ingrid Bergman, “Here’s to looking at you, kid.” Since that day, I have worked out or meditated for up to 90 minutes.
It’s been a rough month; I won’t lie. With Myshka passing and my mom’s anniversary occurring within a couple weeks of each other, I keep thinking that they’re both gone. I met Myshka shortly after my mom passed and she became a maternal figure. I’m not depressed – I am still sewing and going to work, putting it as much effort and care as before. But as I go about my day, both are in the back of my mind.
I talk a lot about my mom and that’s because her sickness was a huge part of my childhood. She was diagnosed with breast cancer when I was in sixth grade and until my senior year of high school, cancer was always present. I grew up fast. I had to. I remember being 16-years-old – my mom was getting treatment at MD Anderson Cancer Center in Houston, Texas while I was in Florida grocery shopping and paying bills for my family. Her spine collapsed that same year, I was a sophomore, and she was given a 3% chance of walking and a 1% chance of living past 6 months. My mom wore several wigs, but her favorite was red in honor of me. She was also in a wheelchair the last year of her life. You don’t forget that.
While my mom didn’t know me as the seamstress I am today, she would be proud to know that her daughter has a passion. At least I hope so. Myshka, of course, was my biggest cheerleader. Both would want me to continue working hard towards my goal, and that’s what I’m going to do.
Okay, enough sappiness! It’s important that I share personal information because I am a real person with feelings.
So, thank you to these sewers, whose posts put a smile on my face this week.
I’m not an Easter person, my preferred holidays are Thanksgiving and Christmas, but Sarah has me excited the upcoming holiday. I want a lavender, DVF skirt too!
Emily had some fun with soft bras – Cloth Habit’s Watson, Colette Florence and more.
In need of a retro playlist to listen to while sewing? Rochelle created one for her Sew for Cotton challenge, but you can listen even if you’re not participating! She also provides a desktop background.
Carolina is a vision in her Holly Jumpsuit. I can’t wait to see this chick in May. NYC here I come!
Can’t get enough of Dixie’s cut out dress.